A sad thing to question oneself, yet it’s something we all do and do well. Sometimes the questions prompt us into self-discovery and other times into avoidance or rejections.

I never knew what it was to relax my brain or words. Talking and thinking were wild like the hamster on a wheel. Running rampant, not getting anywhere. As I began identifying the roots of where it all began, I began understanding the child’s mind could not fathom what she had seen and as long as my mind and mouth kept busy, I didn’t have to remember what I was trying to run away from.

But the Lord is gracious and knew it was time for me to find peace and that couldn’t happen until I jumped off the wheel and since that night, I’ve slept for the first time ever. I’m still recovering and learning things I sometimes wish I wasn’t, but the overwhelming peace outweigh the fear now and it’s simply because I allowed silence to usher God’s voice in.